Sad

So, when times get hard for me and I have personaly struggles I do what I do best. Sit down on the keyboard and start pounding. I try to get everything out that I am feeling inside but often the words do come as easily as they do in my mind.

Yesterday my good friend Jeremy's grandmother was removed from life support. Today my good friend Scott's grandmother died, also today in roughly an hour my family and those I love will be gathering more than 700 miles away to pay their final respects to my Uncle who died Monday.

Thereis more death than I can wrap my mind around this week. I'd like to say my heart has gone numb and is just rolling with the punches but it hasn't. It just keeps hurting more with the news of each death.

I fear my grandfather will be next. He is having a hard time with my uncles death and he is 89 years old. It will take more than the time of year and a blizzard to keep me away if that is the case.

I don't have the time or energy to edit this entry. What you get are my raw emotions and my bad typing skills. I have to go to work, this is going to be a long night. Please pray for Jeremy, Scott and my entire family. My aunt is mourning the death of her second husband, my cousins are mourning the death of their second Dad. Life is so damn unfair.

Yesterday my baby turned 5!

 

It was such a sad thing for me. She is the baby and will stay that way. As long as she was under 5 she was still a preschooler and could be a baby. Now she is officially grade school age and has passed the baby stage. ::sigh::

 

She really did have a good birthday though. We took her to the Mall of America to see the largest gingerbread house in the world. It was really cool. We did some shopping and ended the outing with a trip to Lego Land. Very cool! She has Keely and Patrick come over for ice cream cake and presents. Keely stayed and helped us decorate our tree. She has a great day!

 

Tomorrow Matthew is going to listen to Heidi Piper speak at a school in St. Paul. She is the astronaut from Minnesota that was on the last space mission. I think it is so exciting! He is going with a group that he is in. They should have a good time.

 

Ed got his ass grounded yesterday. I didn't understand teens when I was one and I don't understand them now. I still have 3 more to go through once I have him done. That really sucks. I love babies but I'm not so fond of teenagers.

 

I have to meet with yet another contractor some time this week. The one I met with on Thursday decided the job was just to big for him. I really wish this would all be done and I would be rockin' in my new joint.