Big freakin’ whine

It's my blog and I'll whine if I want to.
I am sooooo sick of Shawn's job. I have lost track of time. I have no earthly idea how long he has been there. 4 weeks? 5 weeks? I can't remember. Way to long. I am really tired of having no adult interaction. I think it's making me crazy. I talk to my cat and my turtle like they are human. I am tired of being quiet and trying to keep the kids quiet. I am sick of cleaning just to go behind the kids and clean again. NO ONE picks up after themselves. Why this is driving me nuts now is because at least Shawn used to keep the kids in line while I cleaned so it wasn't a vicious cycle of cleaning all day long.
I am tired of being a single parent. I am just not cut out for it. I don't know how single parents juggle cleaning, cooking, entertaining kids, homework, and all that jazz alone. PLUS work. Thank goodness I was able to take a leave from one job and quit the other. I couldn't do all this and work too. I give some serious kudos to single parents.
Don't get my wrong I am really appreciative that Shawn is willing to work 12 hours a day, drive for 3 1/2 hours a day, sleep for 7 hours a day and spend an hour with us every day. We are blessed that he is able to have this job but damn it is getting really old.
A few good things though because I always like to be thankful after being so negative. My Mom had her second knee replacement surgery this morning. All went well and when I talked to her tonight she said she wasn't in any pain. Morphine anyone? She is so looking forward to not living her life in constant pain and promised Hannah she would walk her to Uncle Kevin and Aunt Traci's house when we are there in April. She hasn't been able to walk any length for quite some time so this is very exciting for her.
I ordered my new furniture Saturday. A beautiful leather sectional with matching coffee table/ottoman. It should be here in about 3 weeks! Yay!
Oh a bit of sad news, just a bit. I have become sickly addicted to an eagle cam out of Norfolk. The nest looked very promising this year with the female laying 3 eggs. She was chased out of her nest about a week after she laid the third egg by another female. The bitch stole her man too. Of course the eggs are no longer viable and the female has been MIA since Thursday's heated battle for the male. Nature is odd.
That's my whine. I feel better. Thanks.

November?

Is it just me or is anyone else ready for November?
I fancy myself a knowledgeable person. Someone who follows politics if not closely than avidly, but I have had it with all the political talk. Everywhere you turn there it is.
My favorite show "The View" has always had a degree of political talk to it but lately it is insane. Hot topics has always been my favorite part. I love the discussion. Now it is one blow hole spewing her insane thoughts against 3 intelligent mature women who are so frustrated they end up sounding like idiots.
Turn on the news, there it is. Late night talk shows, there it is. E! there it is. My favorite blogs on the www, there it is. Can we get a break?
It is no secret to anyone that I am a die hard democrat. That surprises a lot of people, but hey take a look at the republicans who have been in the office since I have been old enough to pay attention. First we had Bush number 1. Total idiot. Stuck us in a war we shouldn't have been in, made a lot of already rich oil men even richer. Killed the economy. The list goes on. Bush number 2 and I mean number 2 as in ca-ca, crap, shit. We are in the midst of another war we shouldn't be in because his Daddy's friends didn't get rich enough, it is his job to help them out. He has killed our economy. DEAD. We have very few allies left, our dollar is worth next to nothing. The list goes on.
Back to being a democrat. I have had it with them as well. Standing on their pedestal shouting change, change, change. Can they actually do it? Can they get us out of Iraq? Can they turn the economy around? Can they make us a super power again? Can they fix the mess that 8 years of 2 and his flunkies have made?
God I hope so. But can they do it a bit more quietly please?

Redo

I had such high hoped for 2008. It had to be better than last year. Right? Right? Well a whole month in it just doesn't seem to be.
The kids, Shawn and I have been passing around illness after illness. I may just have to buy stock in Lysol. It's seriously insane. Matthew spent the entire week home from school this past week. He has always been so healthy. Germs! Ugh. I still have a lingering cough, now Hannah seems to be coming down with something. I can't wait for spring.
With all this illness and lack of energy I feel like a crappy parent. It's hard to give your all to the kids when you feel like you are barely alive. Then Ed is on a roll again. He had a shitty childhood. My fault. I am tired of feeling guilty about it. I did what I could. He wasn't neglected or abused. He wasn't raised in poverty. He has 2 parents that love him and try their best. I really just can't worry about it anymore. I am tired of having a heartache about it.
My personal life is in the tubes. Really. It is just more than I can handle. I have been on the verge of tears for days. If someone looks at me wrong it's going to be my downfall. I am just a pathetic mess. But enough whining.
I am blessed. I have fabulous kids, terrific, wonderful, amazing, intelligent little beings whom are the source of everything good that has ever happened in my life. I have a husband whom although we have our differences, is amazing. He works hard to take care of all of us and I need to stop noticing the small things and focus on the important things. I have awesome siblings. I mean really awesome. I love them beyond belief, even when we have our differences. I love my parents. I have a lot of great people in my life. Forget about our colds and stuff, we are all healthy. We have enough of the things we need.
Yep, I am blessed. The rest is a bump in the road.

Redo

I had such high hoped for 2008. It had to be better than last year. Right? Right? Well a whole month in it just doesn't seem to be.
The kids, Shawn and I have been passing around illness after illness. I may just have to buy stock in Lysol. It's seriously insane. Matthew spent the entire week home from school this past week. He has always been so healthy. Germs! Ugh. I still have a lingering cough, now Hannah seems to be coming down with something. I can't wait for spring.
With all this illness and lack of energy I feel like a crappy parent. It's hard to give your all to the kids when you feel like you are barely alive. Then Ed is on a roll again. He had a shitty childhood. My fault. I am tired of feeling guilty about it. I did what I could. He wasn't neglected or abused. He wasn't raised in poverty. He has 2 parents that love him and try their best. I really just can't worry about it anymore. I am tired of having a heartache about it.
My personal life is in the tubes. Really. It is just more than I can handle. I have been on the verge of tears for days. If someone looks at me wrong it's going to be my downfall. I am just a pathetic mess. But enough whining.
I am blessed. I have fabulous kids, terrific, wonderful, amazing, intelligent little beings whom are the source of everything good that has ever happened in my life. I have a husband whom although we have our differences, is amazing. He works hard to take care of all of us and I need to stop noticing the small things and focus on the important things. I have awesome siblings. I mean really awesome. I love them beyond belief, even when we have our differences. I love my parents. I have a lot of great people in my life. Forget about our colds and stuff, we are all healthy. We have enough of the things we need.
Yep, I am blessed. The rest is a bump in the road.